Spilled

I am so glad I finally get to talk to my mother about my “love life”. I’m glad I was able to tell her and she was able to understand. My mother is a very strict woman, for everyone’s information. She’s strict when it comes to… uhm everything? Yes, everything.

When we were having a conversation last night, she told me some things about love that I should always keep in mind. She’s 51, and been married for 26 years if I’m not mistaken. Therefore, she has a deeper/more understanding of love, guys, relationships etc. than I do. I suppose!

Before giving me a lecture..

she won’t stop interrogating me about “this guy” (Jake, still. Remember him?), she won’t stop asking me and my sister if Jake really likes me. (She knows Jake personally, by the way) How did I know that he likes me; did he tell me, did someone tell me, etc. She is so makulit! She literally won’t stop asking questions because she doesn’t believe in everything I say. She thinks I’m just making things up. Well this is actually the first time I told her about my non-existent relationship with someone love life so I understand her for acting like that. She just cannot believe that someone might have fallen in love with her misfit daughter. Oh well, nanay.

After the Q&A, there goes the kwentuhan. I told her about the things Jake and I (used to) do.. basically just talking to each other. The things we talk about, and some of the things Jake has told me. I answered everything in all honesty but of course I didn’t tell her every thing. Some things are better left unsaid, ika nga. 😀

After the kwentuhan goes the lecture part. Summarizing everything, she just told me that I shouldn’t just simply assume and be misled/fooled by guys’ actions because sometimes, some of them tend to take advantage of us, girls, in so many ways. I agree, it does happen sometimes. But not to me, not this time, not with Jake.

And since my mother have already noticed that I have feelings for Jake even before I told her, (she said she noticed it by the way I look at him and the way I smile every time we talk, psh) she told me that I should NOT meticulously show him that I like him. Uh that could be MORE effective back then, mother, when we we’re still on the ‘getting-to-know’ stage. Been there, done that. If you only knew what “stage” are we in right now. Well, actually we’re currently just laying it low. Back to casual friends, perhaps? We’ve decided to stop the “love affair” for now (not to give the deets!) aaaaand we’re both cool with it. I just hope we won’t get to the declining part before it’s too late.

Oh wait here’s another one, Nanay told me “Pag ikaw na heartbroken dyan, sige ka.” oh dear mother don’t worry, I know what I’m getting myself into. Jake isn’t my first love.. my heart got broken a couple of times already in the past. I know how it feels.

And I do believe in Jake, I believe that he won’t break my heart.

… not again.

I hope.