For she was already hurt

It was the time.. the time for them to see each other.
After everything, after every single damn thing.
They had to see each other’s faces again.
She did not want to
But she thought she had to.

She did not know how would it feel
She was clueless
She was shaking
She was nervous
She was not ready
But there was no backing out
She had to face it;
she had to face him.

She saw him from afar
But she immediately looked away
For she did not want their eyes to meet.
She had to act normal
Disregarding the peculiar vibration taking in
But eventually she did not withstand what’s happening.

He said hi
But she just passed by
“Why did I ignore him?
I told myself I would still treat him the way I usually do.”

Guess it is easy to say that it does not matter
Guess it is easy to say that everything’s alright
You can convince yourself for a while
You can even force yourself to smile
But you know the pain is alongside yourself
And you feel it primarily when the one who caused it is around
You say it’s okay
“The damage has been done.”

Like an open wound come into contact with the cold wind
That no matter how blithe you are that time
When the breeze gets to your cut
You instantly get distressed
You cannot avoid it
You cannot hide from it
For the wind will get to you no matter what
You may get anguished or vexed
But you got nothing to do with it
For you are already hurt.