Broken once again? … nah

“I just don’t know anymore.” she said,
she was confused about what’s going on between the two of them. It has been 134 days since he left. 134 days and yet she is still holding on. She remained hopeful. She was hoping that someday he’d come back. He didn’t give any assurance on coming back though; it was just her faith in him that made her think he will might… “someday.”

Despite the fact that they don’t talk and see each other much anymore, she knows that their love for each other is still alive. And that is mainly the reason why she is still not letting go. She refuses to let her love go to waste, so she did not stop loving him.. Though she may have stopped showing it.

134 days have passed and yet she always finds herself thinking of him. She constantly wonders what it would feel like to be wrapped in his arms and what it would sound like to hear him say he loves her. Whatever she does, wherever she goes and whenever it is; the thought of him never left her mind. Never even when she has a thousand things to think about. She wasn’t obsessed, she was in love. Still in love with the guy who hurt her. But she’s fine.. she may be a little sad and a whole lot confused but she’s fine.

After all she still believes that he might (still) be “the one”. Funny as it may seem especially to those who knew about what is between the two, but she didn’t care. “I don’t care about what people say or think, I love him. And nothing’s going to change that.”
Nothing’s going to change that, she thought.
Even if he left her once, nothing’s going to change that, still.
Until one day she found out something that changed her perspective. Something that made her say;

“I thought he was different.”

..now something’s about to change.